If this was a crime, I’d already be convicted and thrown into jail.
So many times have I just written posts just to write them and “stay on schedule” and to just get a post up for you all just to say that I had written something for that week. And if I’m being truthful for you all, I am SICK of it.
I want to take my time to write truly amazing and beautiful content that I can look back on and love and approve of, not posts I don’t care about and am just writing just to seem organized and on top of everything.
Because in reality, I am not on top of everything and am a literal mess.
So….. let’s talk about it.
I know that you all can sense whenever I am writing superficial or careless posts. It’s like you all can see beyond the Internet barrier, because when the posts are ones I write just to write them, they don’t get as much comments or views.
And I truly thank you all for being such amazing people and not loving the posts that aren’t the best they could be, because I know myself that those posts can be better. As I write them I’m usually saying to myself, “You know this post isn’t your best work so stop writing it.”
And guess what? I still found myself writing these weakly written and rushed posts.
And I’d like to say that I didn’t know why this was something so common for me to do, but I knew the reason why perfectly well:
- I DON’T HAVE TIME
- school, work, soccer, and blogging is A LOT.
- i am really busy
- 24 hours isn’t enough time to get it all done
- i don’t want to go on a hiatus
I didn’t want to go on a hiatus, because I know there are other amazing bloggers out there, who even though they’re slightly complaining on their blogs sometimes about school and being so busy, they themselves manage to finish everything.
And I didn’t want to be the exception and be one of the only teenage blogger who’s going on a hiatus every time school comes back because she has a lot to do. Because we all have a lot to do, and it’s not only me. So why should I act like this is all hard to handle when it’s clearly do-able?
So I did the math pretty badly, but here’s what I did:
school’s crashing down + i HAVE to post on friday + seeing other bloggers juggling multiple things in life and succeeding = writing bad and rushed posts
So while that might also give you the answer as to why I should have failed first grade mathematics, because that in no way is a logical math problem, it should also explain my situation.
Not all teenagers have blogging, work, soccer, and school going on all at once in their lives. In fact, all the kids at my school are all just working hard on sports and working on maintaining their good (or bad) grades. None of them also have blogging.
But I want you all to understand that I am NOT complaining about being a blogger. I’ve love blogging and I truthfully think of this as an amazing opportunity and a luxury that I have been blessed to be a part of.
But at the same time, if I’m going to be a part of this community and write posts for wonderful readers, I want the posts to be appreciated and to be written, each one with love and care that I can really look back on and not cringe at- but be happy that I wrote it in the first place.
And so if that means I’m stopping writing useless and meaningless posts on whims just to get one up in a week, then so be it.
Have you ever written a post that you we’re 100% proud of? The idea for this came on a whim, but it was definitely written with amazing intentions.
I hope you all enjoyed this post, and that you as well stop writing posts you haven’t been proud of.
Until next time…